Gracefully

I wish I could go back in time and let go of you gracefully. If only I had the wisdom that I have now. If only I could see the reality of why we weren't going to work clearly, then I could have walked away from you with poise and dignity. But I was blindly in love with you. And it was the deep kind of love, too. The kind that feels like a punch in the chest when it's all over. The kind of love that makes you lose your breath. But the kind of love that we had didn't matter. Because we were never going to work, you see? It was never meant to last. At some point, it was bound to end. And everything happened exactly the way it was supposed to. I just wish I could go back in time and tell you that I was sick and tired of being treated like an option and that I am leaving because I deserve better. I wish I could go back in time and walk away from you with my head held high and my heart still attached to my chest. I wish I could have let you go gracefully.